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2010

2010-05-14 · Advice on First Kisses, Stalkers, College Majors, and More — ask: John says Esther Earl, one of their favourite Nerdfighters, is sick, and asks Nerdfighters to sign her guestbook en masse to say they are thinking of her and think she is awesome. — 00:03:39
2010-07-05 · With Esther — announcement: John: Description update: the HPA won the contest ('WE WON! WITH ESTHER!'). — video description
2010-07-05 · With Esther — John: Esther, known online as crazycrayon, helps run Eff Yeah Nerdfighters, which John calls a constantly updating spew of awesome. — 00:00:09
2010-07-05 · With Esther — John: Esther has cancer, which John says sucks. — 00:00:14
2010-07-05 · With Esther — John: This weekend a group of Esther's friends visited her in Boston, and John spent a day with them: 'an amazing day of amazing'. — 00:00:14
2010-07-05 · With Esther — John: They wrote silly questions on a volleyball to throw and answer, picked a Harry Potter character for Esther, had a puff fight, and hunted Boston for espresso and gelato. (playful) — 00:00:31
2010-07-05 · With Esther — Esther Earl: Esther doesn't know which Harry Potter character she'd be, maybe a mix of Luna and someone else; she agrees half Luna, half Dumbledore would be very beautiful. (playful, hedged) — 00:01:00
2010-07-05 · With Esther — John spent the night thinking how grateful he is to know Esther and how to give thanks for their weird, internet-based, cross-generational friendship. — 00:01:34
2010-07-05 · With Esther — John's first 'amazing night of amazing' with Esther was at LeakyCon, a Harry Potter conference. — 00:01:45
2010-07-05 · With Esther — John: Without Harry Potter John would have no Esther, and there probably would not be a Nerdfighteria. (hedged) — 00:01:51
2010-07-05 · With Esther — John: Esther is a big supporter of the Harry Potter Alliance, a charity Nerdfighteria often partners with; together they raised $123,000 to help Haiti and sent the SS DFTBA there. — 00:01:57
2010-07-05 · With Esther — announcement: John: The HPA is in a big contest to potentially win $250,000 to decrease world suck, and is currently in third place. — 00:02:13
2010-07-05 · With Esther — ask: John asks viewers to vote for the Harry Potter Alliance via the link in the description and to get their friends to vote. — 00:02:22
2010-07-05 · With Esther — John: Winning would be a small way to thank Esther; John won't say 'for Esther', since she would hate that, but says they should win 'with Esther'. (hedged) — 00:02:41
2010-07-20 (said on 2010-07-19, implied) · I Like Balls — John says his proudest day as a Nerdfighter came last week (week of 12 July 2010), not when the Vlogbrothers hit 300,000 subscribers, but when Nerdfighters came together with Esther and helped the Harry Potter Alliance win $250,000. — 00:01:43
2010-08-02 · I Love Hank: Esther Day 2010 — announcement: John says it is Monday, August 2, 2010 (August 3 in Australia), so in Australia it is Nerdfighter Esther's 16th birthday, a.k.a. Esther Day. — 00:00:00
2010-08-02 · I Love Hank: Esther Day 2010 — John says that when he met Esther in Boston, he promised her that on her birthday, forever, the brothers would make videos about whatever she wanted. — 00:00:00
2010-08-02 · I Love Hank: Esther Day 2010 — ask: The description points to Esther's own vlog and asks viewers to wish her a happy birthday and to make someone they love aware of that love today. — video description
2010-08-02 · I Love Hank: Esther Day 2010 — John: Esther told John she wants Esther Day to be about family and love. — 00:00:29
2010-08-02 · I Love Hank: Esther Day 2010 — John jokes that showing Hank love should be enough without talking about it, but because it is Esther Day they will talk about family and love. (playful) — 00:00:29
2010-08-02 · I Love Hank: Esther Day 2010 — John's hypothetical: saying you like your brother and showing love (thousands planting trees for his birthday) is not the same as telling him you love him, which John thinks Esther wants. (playful, hedged) — 00:02:26
2010-08-02 · I Love Hank: Esther Day 2010 — John tells Hank that he loves him. — 00:02:55
2010-08-02 · I Love Hank: Esther Day 2010 — ask: John asks Nerdfighters to join Esther and him in telling someone they love that they love them today. — 00:02:55
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — The description says Esther helped run the Eff Yeah Nerdfighters Tumblr site. — video description
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — John reports that Esther Earl, the Nerdfighter who inspired many of Nerdfighteria's recent worldsuck-decreasing projects, died earlier this week (week of 23 August 2010), aged 16. — 00:00:01
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — John: Esther was a great friend to many in Nerdfighteria and to John; the community was a huge part of her life, her best friends were Nerdfighters, who gave her a scrapbook from hundreds of them. — 00:00:09
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — John describes Esther as an amazing kid, astonishingly empathetic, thoughtful and very funny, but not an angel or a model of perfection: a person, a teenager. — 00:00:33
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — John: As examples John cites Esther's playful Formspring answer about naming her butt cheeks and a contemplative tweet about words going into her brain. — 00:00:46
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — John says that with Esther the Nerdfighter community came together and helped the Harry Potter Alliance win $250,000. — 00:01:02
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — John says it was because of Esther that on Esther Day he told Hank he loves him, which he does, though he doesn't want to talk about it. — 00:01:08
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — John says the community will continue to do projects with Esther: she will be with them most when they work to decrease worldsuck and show love for others. — 00:01:14
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — John argues that rather than rushing to mitigate loss or find a silver lining, there is real value in standing still, being sad, bearing witness to Esther's life and being transformed by it. — 00:01:35
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — John recounts that when he saw Esther in Boston a couple of months ago she said she believes the dead live on in the memory and lives of those they touched. — 00:01:52
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — ask: John asks those so inclined to give to the Friends of Esther Fund, which goes directly to her family for expenses incurred during her care; link in the doobly-doo. — 00:02:01
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — recommendation: John links Esther's Twitter and YouTube accounts; she vlogged through much of the last month and her vlogs are hilarious, charming and very touching. — 00:02:14
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — John: Esther means 'star', and her friends printed a bracelet reading 'This Star Won't Go Out'; John says it won't: we won't let it. — 00:02:40
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — John tells a story: answering questions written on a soccer ball, Esther was asked what she would tell her younger self, and her answer is a nice reminder to everyone. — 00:02:50
2010-08-27 · Rest In Awesome, Esther — Esther Earl: In the clip Esther says she might tell her younger self that family is important. (hedged) — 00:03:07
2010-10-27 · You Are Awesome — announcement: John: Answering Nerdfighters who asked where to get a 'This Star Won't Go Out' bracelet like his, John says they are now sold at DFTBA.com/Esther. — 00:00:42
2010-10-27 · You Are Awesome — John says the bracelets honor Esther Earl, the brothers' friend and fellow Nerdfighter who died a couple of months ago from cancer. — 00:00:42
2010-10-27 · You Are Awesome — announcement: John says they bought the bracelets and Alan at DFTBA Records processes and packages every order free, so 100% of the money goes to the This Star Won't Go Out Foundation. — 00:00:42
2010-10-27 · You Are Awesome — announcement: John describes the This Star Won't Go Out Foundation as a new organization founded by Esther's family to help other families with kids who have cancer. — 00:01:11
2010-10-27 · You Are Awesome — ask: John calls the foundation another way to work with Esther to make the world suck less and urges viewers to get a bracelet at DFTBA.com/Esther. — 00:01:11
2010-11-01 · Consider the Lemming — ask: John: Reminded by the pumpkin, John tells Nerdfighters to get their Esther bracelets. — 00:03:15

2011

2011-02-09 · NERDFIGHTERS UNITE! (in your pants) — John says Nerdfighteria has accomplished a ton in recent months, including raising more than $10,000 with Esther for This Star Won't Go Out. — 00:01:36
2011-03-28 · Participatory Geometry — John calls Esther's 'Sports is like life also poop' a great quote. (playful) — 00:02:29
2011-06-10 · Then I Took Off My Bra — ask: John reminds viewers This Star Won't Go Out bracelets are at DFTBA.com, with 100% of proceeds to the foundation set up in Esther Earl's memory to support families affected by cancer. — 00:01:44
2011-06-10 · Then I Took Off My Bra — John says that in the almost ten months since Esther died, more than $10,000 has been raised for This Star Won't Go Out, and thanks Nerdfighteria. — 00:02:02
2011-08-03 · I Love My Brother — announcement: Hank opens by announcing it is Esther Day and trying out 'I love you' on John, promising he'll get there eventually. (playful) — 00:00:00
2011-08-03 · I Love My Brother — Hank says Esther was an awesome Nerdfighter who did amazing things with her friends; she would have turned 17 today had she not died of cancer. — 00:00:00
2011-08-03 · I Love My Brother — announcement: Hank says Esther is why the brothers always wear their bracelets, sold for $5 at DFTBA.com with all proceeds to the This Star Won't Go Out Foundation, which helps children with cancer and their families. — 00:00:00
2011-08-03 · I Love My Brother — Hank recounts that last year (2010), when Esther was very sick, John promised the brothers would do whatever she wanted on her birthday in perpetuity, and she asked them to talk about family and love every year. — 00:00:29
2011-08-03 · I Love My Brother — Hank says that when someone you respect is about to die and tells you to do something, you do it. — 00:00:58
2011-08-03 · I Love My Brother — Hank thinks Esther asked for Esther Day a little for herself and for Nerdfighteria, but mostly for the brothers themselves. (hedged) — 00:01:27
2011-08-03 · I Love My Brother — Hank thinks Esther, at both the beginning and the end of her life, had a special wisdom: she knew loving each other is pretty much the most important thing we do. (hedged) — 00:01:27
2011-08-03 · I Love My Brother — ask: Hank tells viewers that this is what Esther Day is about: tell the people you love that you love them so that they know. — 00:01:56
2011-08-03 · I Love My Brother — Hank: Having put it off since the opening ('John, I will get to you later'), Hank ends the video by telling John 'I love you'. — 00:03:16
2011-08-05 · Vidcon: Thoughts from Places — John tells Hank 'I love that. I love you,' and wishes him a happy belated Esther Day. — 00:02:20
2011-10-28 · Reading Chapter One of The Fault in Our Stars — announcement: John says The Fault in Our Stars is dedicated to his friend Esther Earl. — 00:01:12

2012

2012-01-10 (said on 2012-01-09, implied) · The Fault in Our Stars — John says he could never have written TFIOS without knowing Esther, who definitely inspired it, but stresses that Hazel is not Esther: the book is made up, a novel. — 00:02:11
2012-07-31 · Nerd Olympics — announcement: John announces that Friday is Esther Day, honoring Esther, who inspired much of The Fault in Our Stars and Nerdfighteria, by telling people we love that we love them. — 00:02:03
2012-07-31 · Nerd Olympics — ask: John: Esther's family is holding an Esther Day event in Quincy, Massachusetts; John urges viewers to go (link in the description). — 00:02:03
2012-07-31 · Nerd Olympics — ask: John: Viewers can enter a t-shirt design contest for This Star Won't Go Out, the organization Esther's family set up in her memory. — 00:02:03
2012-07-31 · Nerd Olympics — John loves Esther Day and is grateful to Esther for the gift of making people say 'I love you' to each other. — 00:02:32
2012-08-03 · I Don't Understand My Life — Hank: Reading that comment this week (week of 30 July 2012) made Esther's message hit home for Hank harder than ever. — 00:01:59
2012-08-03 · I Don't Understand My Life — Hank: Esther Earl was a Nerdfighter the brothers met in 2009 at the first LeakyCon; she and her friends were and remain very important to Nerdfighteria; she had lived with cancer a long time. — 00:02:08
2012-08-03 · I Don't Understand My Life — Hank: When Esther was really sick, John told her the brothers wanted to celebrate her birthday every year the channel existed; after about two weeks she chose a day for saying 'I love you' to family and friends. — 00:02:19
2012-08-03 · I Don't Understand My Life — ask: Hank: This Esther Day viewers 'get a gold medal in love' if they say 'I love you' to people they don't usually say it to; don't take love for granted or assume people know how you feel. — 00:03:03
2012-09-14 · 1000 VIDEOS!!! — Hank lists results: $300,000 and thousands of videos for charities through P4A, thousands of This Star Won't Go Out bracelets, over $1,000,000 lent through the Nerdfighter Kiva group, hundreds of Thoughts from Places. — 00:01:04
2012-09-25 · Do Businesses Need to Suck? — ask: John reminds viewers they can order Esther bracelets, with proceeds going to This Star Won't Go Out, which supports children with cancer and their families. — 00:03:24

2013

2013-01-15 · An Evening of Awesome at Carnegie Hall — John says none of those books addressed what he saw at the hospital, which left him feeling only nihilism; then he became friends with Esther Earl and became a father. — 00:53:28
2013-01-15 · An Evening of Awesome at Carnegie Hall — John says Esther, a Nerdfighter reader very sick with cancer when they met in 2009, taught him what Augustus learns: the real hero's journey goes from strength to weakness. — 00:54:11
2013-01-15 · An Evening of Awesome at Carnegie Hall — John says it looks as if he jumped into the abyss with Esther, but she jumped in with him: he was hopeless, and she liked being alive. — 00:54:53
2013-01-15 · An Evening of Awesome at Carnegie Hall — John says the realization that Esther's short life was still a good, rich and full life was central to The Fault in Our Stars. — 00:55:41
2013-01-15 · An Evening of Awesome at Carnegie Hall — John says books seem one person's work, but TFIOS was partly written by Esther, his wife, Julie Strauss-Gabel, Jodi Reamer, John Darnielle, Hank and T. S. Eliot. — 00:59:48
2013-01-22 · How to Be More Than Friends: Question Tuesday — John: Asked what he would most like to tell Esther about, John says he wishes she could have read The Fault in Our Stars and often wonders whether she would have liked it. — 00:00:50
2013-04-02 · TFiOS Movie Casting, New Books, and Groundhog Wars: An Old School Vlogbrothers Video — John says Esther Earl was a huge inspiration for The Fault in Our Stars and he could never have written it without knowing her. — 00:00:00
2013-04-02 · TFiOS Movie Casting, New Books, and Groundhog Wars: An Old School Vlogbrothers Video — John: Answering readers who ask whether Hazel is Esther, John says the novel is not Esther's story; her story belongs to her and her family. — 00:00:00
2013-04-02 · TFiOS Movie Casting, New Books, and Groundhog Wars: An Old School Vlogbrothers Video — John tells new Nerdfighters that Esther Earl was a Nerdfighter and friend of his who died of cancer in 2010 at 16. — 00:00:00
2013-04-02 · TFiOS Movie Casting, New Books, and Groundhog Wars: An Old School Vlogbrothers Video — announcement: John announces a book of Esther's writing (diaries, fiction, letters, material from her parents, his introduction), out January 2014; cover not final. — 00:00:29
2013-04-02 · TFiOS Movie Casting, New Books, and Groundhog Wars: An Old School Vlogbrothers Video — ask: John says the book will be Esther's story, he is very happy it will exist, and viewers can pre-order it now via the link. — 00:00:29
2013-08-03 · Esther Day 2013 — John marks Esther Day 2013, the day in memory of Esther when people say 'I love you' not to romantic partners but to friends and family, to whom it is harder to say. — 00:00:00
2013-08-03 · Esther Day 2013 — ask: The description asks viewers to tell someone they love them today, even and especially if it is hard. — video description
2013-08-03 · Esther Day 2013 — ask: The description asks viewers to support This Star Won't Go Out, the charity Esther's family created in her memory, at tswgo.org or by buying TSWGO merchandise at DFTBA (all proceeds to the foundation). — video description
2013-08-03 · Esther Day 2013 — John says Esther Earl was a Nerdfighter the brothers met at LeakyCon 2009 in Boston. — 00:00:43
2013-08-03 · Esther Day 2013 — John: Esther was a dear friend and a really important Nerdfighter; she died in 2010 at sixteen. — 00:00:59
2013-08-03 · Esther Day 2013 — John: the brothers remember Esther on Esther Day and every day by trying to spread her message of love. — 00:01:07
2013-08-03 · Esther Day 2013 — John recalls telling Esther the brothers would hold Esther Day on her birthday as long as they make Vlogbrothers videos; she chose love between family and friends as its theme. — 00:01:19

2014

2014-01-07 · Warm Things for Cold Times — John says Esther Earl was the brothers' friend and a Nerdfighter who died of cancer when she was sixteen. — 00:00:40
2014-01-07 · Warm Things for Cold Times — John says Esther inspired much of The Fault in Our Stars, but the novel is not about her. — 00:00:43
2014-01-07 · Warm Things for Cold Times — announcement: John presents Esther's actual story as a book: he wrote the introduction and other people wrote other parts. — 00:00:47
2014-01-07 · Warm Things for Cold Times — recommendation: John calls it an amazing book: Esther was a beautiful writer and her parts are the best. — 00:00:47
2014-01-07 · Warm Things for Cold Times — John reads the first sentence of his introduction: his friendship with Esther began, as so many great love stories do, at a Harry Potter convention. — 00:01:00
2014-01-07 · Warm Things for Cold Times — announcement: John announces a book launch event on February 1st in Boston with Nerdfighters, wizard rockers and Esther's family, livestreamed on youtube.com/vlogbrothers. — 00:01:06
2014-01-07 · Warm Things for Cold Times — John sums up: Esther's dream of being a published writer is coming true and Nerdfighteria sponsors a fourth-tier English professional soccer team; life in Nerdfighteria is weird and wonderful. — 00:02:12
2014-01-14 · Giving Away Over $700,000 — John describes This Star Won't Go Out as set up in memory of Esther Earl to give direct support to families of kids with cancer. — 00:01:15
2014-01-28 · Question Tuesday! TFIOS Movie Trailer, Penguin Knees, and Backflips — announcement: John: Esther Earl's book comes out today; John is 'so flipping excited' and calls the book wonderful. — 00:01:15
2014-01-28 · Question Tuesday! TFIOS Movie Trailer, Penguin Knees, and Backflips — announcement: John says he will do a live show tomorrow (29 January 2014) to read from Esther's book and talk more about it. — 00:01:25
2014-08-03 · Happy Esther Day! — Hank explains Esther Day: in 2010 John asked Esther Earl, a nerdfighter who helped inspire The Fault in Our Stars, what the community should do on her birthday; she chose love in families and friendships, not romance. — 00:00:35
2014-08-03 · Happy Esther Day! — Hank recalls that John last year (2013) called Esther Day a Valentine's Day for the rest of love. — 00:00:51
2014-08-03 · Happy Esther Day! — ask: Hank asks viewers to take time today to say 'I love you' to people they don't normally say it to: it's a good thing to do, and it's what Esther wants. — 00:01:09

2015

2015-04-14 · A Long Good Day — John: The Fault in Our Stars won Best Movie, and John made the acceptance speech, as everyone had urged, so that he could thank Esther. — 00:02:38
2015-08-03 · I Love You, Hank. Esther Day 2015 — John: On Monday, August 3rd, Esther Day, John says he is in Agloe, New York, though he can't be sure exactly where it is, a place 'only sometimes real'. (playful, hedged) — 00:00:00
2015-08-03 · I Love You, Hank. Esther Day 2015 — John says that on Esther Day we remember Esther Earl as she wished, by celebrating love in families and friendships, not just romantic love. — 00:00:17
2015-08-03 · I Love You, Hank. Esther Day 2015 — John says Esther Day is the day to say 'I love you' to family and friends even, especially, when it's hard. — 00:00:27
2015-08-03 · I Love You, Hank. Esther Day 2015 — ask: John points viewers to Esther's book and to DFTBA.com or TSWGO.org to support This Star Won't Go Out, the charity Esther's family created to support families of children with cancer. — 00:01:19

2016

2016-08-02 · Beckoning Lovely — announcement: John will see Hank tomorrow because it will be Esther Day. — 00:02:58
2016-08-03 · Lives Made of Love - Esther Day 2016 — The description says Esther Earl, a Nerdfighter who died in 2010 at 16, asked that her birthday be a day for saying "I love you" to people you love but don't tell enough. — video description
2016-08-03 · Lives Made of Love - Esther Day 2016 — Hank says Esther Day, August 3, celebrates kinds of love society is less good at celebrating, though they hold society together. (hedged) — 00:02:03
2016-08-03 · Lives Made of Love - Esther Day 2016 — Hank tells John he loves him not for their projects or as collaborator and thinker but because he's a great brother who stands by him even when he's a jerk. — 00:02:16
2016-08-03 · Lives Made of Love - Esther Day 2016 — Hank thanks Esther for giving everyone a day to remember that. — 00:03:15

2017

2017-02-28 · You Are Here — John wants to say now what he struggled to say at the NerdCon closing ceremonies: he thought about Esther a lot that weekend. — 00:00:12
2017-02-28 · You Are Here — John recalls Esther Earl, a Nerdfighter who with her friends helped run the Project for Awesome behind the scenes and who died of cancer in 2010 at 16. — 00:00:18
2017-02-28 · You Are Here — John and Esther met in Boston, where her Make-A-Wish brought him and some of her Nerdfighter friends; now they were there again, dancing and singing to songs Esther loved. — 00:00:25
2017-02-28 · You Are Here — John: On Saturday (25 February 2017) John visited Esther's grave with her parents and one of her sisters; many Nerdfighters have visited over the years, leaving artwork, keychains and This Star Won't Go Out bracelets. — 00:00:34
2017-02-28 · You Are Here — John: Esther met her Nerdfighter friends in the comments of the brothers' old BlogTV live shows, staying in the chat after the shows: their friendship happened in a space the brothers created and then vacated. (hedged) — 00:00:44
2017-02-28 · You Are Here — John: At Esther's grave John kept wondering how to thank and repay someone who is gone for the lasting gifts of their love and friendship. — 00:02:13
2017-07-18 · Accio Decade Hallows — John: Without the song they wouldn't have met Esther or the people behind the Project for Awesome, Hank probably wouldn't have sung before thousands, and John doubts he would be signing 200,000 copies of his new book. (hedged) — 00:03:34
2017-08-03 · HAPPY ESTHER DAY!!! — John marks Esther Day: seven years ago today Esther Earl made a video saying she loved her sisters, brother, parents, pets and friends, online and in real life. — 00:00:03
2017-08-03 · HAPPY ESTHER DAY!!! — John says Esther died a few weeks later aged just 16, and every year on August 3, her birthday, they pause to celebrate Esther Day, a celebration of love. — 00:00:23
2017-08-03 · HAPPY ESTHER DAY!!! — John says Esther wanted special attention paid to the non-romantic love among family and friends that often goes unacknowledged in our culture. — 00:00:33
2017-08-03 · HAPPY ESTHER DAY!!! — ask: John hopes viewers will take a moment on Esther Day to tell people in their lives that they love them, especially if it is hard to do. — 00:00:57
2017-08-03 · HAPPY ESTHER DAY!!! — John says that after Esther died her family created This Star Won't Go Out, a charity that has helped many families of kids with cancer. — 00:01:05
2017-08-03 · HAPPY ESTHER DAY!!! — John notes that the Project Lovely logo was made by Emily Cole using a font made from Esther's actual handwriting. — 00:01:19
2017-08-03 · HAPPY ESTHER DAY!!! — John says Esther loved the Project for Awesome and Harry Potter Alliance initiatives, and thinks Project Lovely is a beautiful way for her family and friends to continue her legacy. (hedged) — 00:01:41
2017-08-03 · HAPPY ESTHER DAY!!! — recommendation: John highly recommends Esther's memoir This Star Won't Go Out, a beautiful book available wherever books are sold. — 00:01:53
2017-12-05 · On the Movies — John says The Fault in Our Stars held parts of him people knew about, like his friendship with Esther Earl, and parts of traumatic experiences he had never told anyone. — 00:01:22

2018

2018-08-03 · How Do Adults Make Friends? — Hank marks Esther Day, a day in the community, and ideally the world, to celebrate non-romantic love by telling the people you love that you love them, even if awkward. — 00:00:00
2018-08-03 · How Do Adults Make Friends? — The description recalls that Esther Earl, asked by her family how she wanted to be remembered on her birthday, chose a celebration of love among family and friends. — video description

2019

2019-08-02 · The Cutest Octopus — ask: Hank notes Esther Day is tomorrow and tells everyone to get ready to tell the people they love that they love them. — 00:03:37
2019-08-03 · I Love John: Esther Day 2019 — The description says Esther Earl was a Nerdfighter, activist and cool person who died of thyroid cancer in 2010. — video description
2019-08-03 · I Love John: Esther Day 2019 — recommendation: The description points to This Star Won't Go Out, an organization inspired by Esther that supports families of children with cancer. — video description
2019-08-03 · I Love John: Esther Day 2019 — Hank marks the occasion: it is the tenth Esther Day. — 00:00:20
2019-08-03 · I Love John: Esther Day 2019 — Hank: For ten years, at the request of nerdfighter Esther Earl, the community has taken a day to tell friends and family, not internet faves or crushes, that we love them. — 00:00:45
2019-08-03 · I Love John: Esther Day 2019 — Hank: Esther's request to celebrate her birthday by celebrating familial love was genius: there was no day for that, and the tradition needed to exist. — 00:02:40
2019-08-03 · I Love John: Esther Day 2019 — ask: Hank asks everyone else, first-timers or ten-year veterans, to text, email, call or write a letter telling people who probably know it that they love them; they'll love hearing it. — 00:03:25

2020

2020-08-03 · you're bundled up now? wait till you get older. — John recalls that just over ten years ago Esther Earl texted him that she wanted the holiday Nerdfighteria celebrated on her birthday, August 3rd, to be about love. — 00:00:20
2020-08-03 · you're bundled up now? wait till you get older. — John: Esther meant the non-romantic kinds of love our culture rarely celebrates: a day to say 'I love you' to friends, family and others whose love goes unacknowledged. — 00:00:29
2020-08-03 · you're bundled up now? wait till you get older. — John says Esther died just a few weeks later at 16; she would be in her mid-20s now, and he thinks about her and misses her a lot. — 00:00:41
2020-08-03 · you're bundled up now? wait till you get older. — John: Esther's family started This Star Won't Go Out in her memory; it gives direct relief to families with sick kids and grants to young creative people. — 00:00:52
2020-08-03 · you're bundled up now? wait till you get older. — John: Through the charity, her family and her friends, John says he still feels Esther's presence. — 00:01:05
2020-08-03 · you're bundled up now? wait till you get older. — John: Esther's friends from those Nerdfighteria days remain close, most recently gathering at one's wedding; seeing these decade-plus friendships flourish is a great joy of the online community. — 00:01:09
2020-08-03 · you're bundled up now? wait till you get older. — John wishes Esther had been at Katie's wedding and at last year's (2019) VidCon; she wasn't, but the love she shared with family and friends is still here. — 00:01:27
2020-08-03 · you're bundled up now? wait till you get older. — John: About ten years before the first Esther Day, the picture was taken on a trip to the Grand Canyon, when they were young and full of hope and strong opinions. — 00:01:41
2020-08-03 · you're bundled up now? wait till you get older. — John says Esther was right that the constant is love: much from 2010 feels dated now, but not Esther Day. — 00:03:35
2020-08-03 · you're bundled up now? wait till you get older. — ask: John hopes viewers will take a moment to tell friends and family that they love them and are grateful for their love. — 00:03:42
2020-09-29 · How 'bout Yours? — John remembers a walk ten years ago (2010) with his friend Esther: for her Make-A-Wish she gathered Nerdfighter friends and invited him, and on the way to gelato they had to cross a bridge. — 00:00:29
2020-09-29 · How 'bout Yours? — John: The bridge had a see-through floor and John dislikes heights and bridges; Esther noticed, said they were almost across and offered him her wheelchair to push and hold on to. — 00:01:05
2020-09-29 · How 'bout Yours? — John says Esther has been gone over ten years, but her thoughtfulness and kindness still help him and hold him together. — 00:03:04
2020-09-29 · How 'bout Yours? — John: Esther's kindness reminds John that your bridge may be scary even if his isn't, and he often tells himself he is almost across the bridge and can hold on to something if needed. — 00:03:29
2020-10-27 · The time I met Joe Biden — John: Biden told John his family loved The Fault in Our Stars and it helped them process his son's cancer diagnosis; he asked about Esther, with tears in his eyes as John talked. — 00:00:58
2020-10-27 · The time I met Joe Biden — John was struck that Biden wanted to talk about Esther more than about the success of the book or the movie. — 00:01:27

2021

2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — John: On Esther Day John tells Hank he loves him. — 00:00:00
2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — John: Eleven years ago, asked what holiday to celebrate on her birthday, Esther Earl imagined one celebrating non-romantic love in friendships and families, which too often goes unspoken. — 00:00:00
2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — John: Esther knew non-romantic love got too little attention and that John rarely said 'I love you' to Hank, so she gave them Esther Day, for which he is grateful. — 00:00:29
2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — John: Esther died a few weeks after the first Esther Day in 2010, aged 16; her parents then founded This Star Won't Go Out, which gives direct financial support to families of kids with cancer. — 00:00:58
2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — recommendation: John recommends that viewers new to Nerdfighteria read Esther's book, also called This Star Won't Go Out. — 00:01:56
2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — John: After Esther died, the community talked about doing things not just for her or in her memory but with her, carrying her legacy in its work. — 00:01:56
2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — John: For John nothing rights the wrong of Esther's illness and death or lessens the grief of those who loved her, but he is very proud of how Nerdfighteria responded. — 00:01:56
2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — John sees the response in thousands celebrating Esther Day, the community's commitment to child health including pediatric cancer care in impoverished communities, and support for This Star Won't Go Out. — 00:02:26
2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — John: Esther's memory lights the way in all these projects, and John hopes they continue for many years. — 00:02:26
2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — ask: John hopes viewers take a moment today to acknowledge the love in their lives, especially the kinds that are hard to say out loud. — 00:02:55
2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — John: We are only here briefly; John sometimes protects himself from cracking open with cynicism and irony, but today he urges gathering courage, being with Esther and saying what we mean. — 00:02:55
2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — ask: John: In a P.S. John says he really hopes to see viewers at tonight's Esther Day Gala, linked in the description. — 00:03:25
2021-08-03 · I L*** Hank — John: Feeling Esther would want a joke, John shares something that just happened to him between takes: 'Sneezing is never normal. I never sneeze.' (playful) — 00:03:25

2022

2022-08-03 · Why is it So Hard to Say 'I Love You'? — Hank wishes John a happy Esther Day, tells him he loves him, and says that saying it is getting easier, and he has ideas why. — 00:00:00
2022-08-03 · Why is it So Hard to Say 'I Love You'? — ask: The description asks viewers to register for the Esther Day livestream (8 PM Eastern) featuring Sarah and John. — video description
2022-08-03 · Why is it So Hard to Say 'I Love You'? — Hank's third reason: Esther made them practice. — 00:01:56
2022-08-03 · Why is it So Hard to Say 'I Love You'? — Hank explains that Esther Earl, an early community member, died of cancer in 2010, and asked how to celebrate her birthday, chose non-romantic love: a Valentine's Day for all other kinds of love. — 00:01:56
2022-08-03 · Why is it So Hard to Say 'I Love You'? — Hank says anything new is hard the first time, and outside one's experience still hard the fifth, but after about 12 Esther Days it is easier, which is a good gift. — 00:02:40
2022-08-03 · Why is it So Hard to Say 'I Love You'? — announcement: Hank announces an Esther Day livestream tonight at 8 p.m. Eastern with people from This Star Won't Go Out, Esther's family, John and Sarah, and the Animal Wonders folks. — 00:02:40

2023

2023-08-03 · I love you, Hank. Happy Esther Day. — John explains Esther Day: a holiday founded by Esther Earl, a friend and longtime nerdfighter who died of cancer in 2010 at 16, for the love between family and friends. — 00:00:00
2023-08-03 · I love you, Hank. Happy Esther Day. — ask: The description invites viewers to join the Esther Day livestream tonight at 8 PM Eastern. — video description
2023-08-03 · I love you, Hank. Happy Esther Day. — announcement: In a channel comment John says he added 'Happy Esther Day' to the title because people seemed to get the wrong vibe from it. — creator comment
2023-08-03 · I love you, Hank. Happy Esther Day. — John suspects part of Esther's thinking was that the two nerds found it hard to say 'I love you' to each other, so she made them do it yearly. (playful, speculative) — 00:00:29
2023-08-03 · I love you, Hank. Happy Esther Day. — John says this Esther Day hits different: Hank's cancer diagnosis reminded them life is fragile and that they are fortunate in the people they share life with. — 00:01:27
2023-08-03 · I love you, Hank. Happy Esther Day. — John says Esther saw this at 16 better than he did in 2010, and gave them the holiday as a chance to tell people they care. — 00:01:27
2023-08-03 · I love you, Hank. Happy Esther Day. — John says Esther's family set up This Star Won't Go Out, giving direct financial support to families of kids with cancer, and he understands better than ever how much it helps. — 00:02:46
2023-08-03 · I love you, Hank. Happy Esther Day. — ask: John encourages viewers to say 'I love you' to the people they love, especially when it's hard. — 00:03:16
2023-12-24 · John and Hank Hanging Out but they Keep Getting Younger and More Pixelated — John says he told Esther the holiday would be on her birthday as long as they make Vlogbrothers; she wanted it about love between family and friends, a Valentine's Day for the rest of love. — 01:43:00

2024

2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — John returns to YouTube on Esther Day after his longest break in 11 years, says he is feeling much better and thanks viewers for their kind messages. — 00:00:00
2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — ask: The description asks viewers to register for the Esther Day Party this evening. — video description
2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — John recounts that in 2010 the community created a holiday on the birthday of nerdfighter Esther Earl, who was dying of cancer and was asked what holiday she wanted. — 00:00:20
2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — John: Esther wanted a holiday celebrating love, especially the non-romantic kinds often left out of our conversations about love. — 00:00:29
2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — ask: John hopes viewers who have a moment today will tell someone that they love them, in Esther's honor. — 00:00:40
2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — John tells Hank he loves him, noting they have traditionally said it only on Esther Day for fear of being too cloying or sentimental. — 00:00:45
2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — John desperately wishes Esther were here; she would be 30 years old, a grown-up. — 00:02:03
2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — John is proud of Esther's now grown-up Nerdfighter friends and of all the people who let the brothers be part of their growing up. — 00:02:10
2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — announcement: John: Esther's friends and family will celebrate her and Esther Day tonight, Eastern Time; John, Wheezy Waiter and Flula will be there, with a link in the doobly-doo. — 00:02:26
2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — John: The celebration will also discuss This Star Won't Go Out, the charity Esther's family founded in her memory, which financially supports kids with cancer and their families. — 00:02:45
2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — John: This month (August 2024) reminded John of the importance of community; he is grateful Nerdfighteria could be an important community for Esther and for so many people. — 00:02:55
2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — John would like to take credit, but Nerdfighteria is constantly made up by the people who are and have been part of it, like Esther. — 00:03:17
2024-08-03 · I Love Hank. (Also I'm back.) — John thanks Esther for that and for the day celebrating the kinds of love too often neglected by our social order, and tells her he loves her. — 00:03:24

2025

2025-08-03 · Why I Actually Love My Brother — Hank says saying 'I love you' to his brother is not physically difficult but not natural: even after all these years of Esther Days, the words feel like they belong somewhere else. — 00:00:00
2025-08-03 · Why I Actually Love My Brother — Hank explains Esther Day: on her birthday, an annual celebration of Esther Earl's life, which she asked to be a celebration not of romantic love but of platonic love. — 00:03:03
2025-08-03 · Why I Actually Love My Brother — ask: Hank invites viewers to the 15th annual Esther Day celebration, a virtual party starting at 3 p.m. Eastern, 1 p.m. Mountain, where folks celebrate love, friendship and community; the link is in the description. — 00:03:14

2026

2026-02-14 · Project for Awesome 2026 part 3! — John says Esther Earl, part of the group Catitude, was in some ways a co-founder of the Project for Awesome, and that its current director, Lindsay Ballantyne, was also in Catitude. — 00:37:32
2026-02-14 · Project for Awesome 2026 part 3! — John dedicated The Fault in Our Stars to Esther Earl, a Nerdfighter who lived with cancer and in whose memory This Star Won't Go Out was founded; she and her family were and are good friends. — 00:38:42
2026-02-14 · Project for Awesome 2026 part 3! — John says Esther Earl's family runs This Star Won't Go Out, which gives families of sick children the financial support they lacked: for bills, hospital travel and time off work. — 00:39:08
2026-07-07 · On the Death of the Author — John: In The Fault in Our Stars John invented Peter Van Houten, an author who meets a dying young reader, knowing readers knew the book was partly inspired by his meeting Esther Earl. — 00:04:25
2026-08-03 · Esther Day 2026: Some Thoughts on Loss — John explains that since 2010 the community has marked Esther Day each August 3rd in memory of nerdfighter Esther Earl, who wished for a day to tell friends and family 'I love you'. — 00:00:00
2026-08-03 · Esther Day 2026: Some Thoughts on Loss — John finds this year (2026) especially strange: Esther has been gone almost 16 years, as long as she lived, and much of his life has passed without her. — 00:00:00
2026-08-03 · Esther Day 2026: Some Thoughts on Loss — announcement: The description says that at tonight's free Esther Day Virtual Party, celebrating love, friendship and community, John joins Sarah Urist Green for a special Esther Day Dear Hank & John. — video description
2026-08-03 · Esther Day 2026: Some Thoughts on Loss — John: Nor can John reconcile himself to the deaths of Esther, Amy, or the kids he met in the hospital over half his life ago. — 00:02:13
2026-08-03 · Esther Day 2026: Some Thoughts on Loss — John holds, as one of his grounds of being, that love is stronger than death: the love Amy, Esther and others poured into the world is still with it. — 00:03:15
2026-08-03 · Esther Day 2026: Some Thoughts on Loss — ask: John hopes viewers will join him, Sarah and lots of others today for an Esther Day party hosted by Esther's family, with more info in the description. — 00:04:08
2026-08-03 · Esther Day 2026: Some Thoughts on Loss — ask: John hopes viewers will overcome the awkwardness of saying 'I love you' and let people in their lives know they love them. — 00:04:08